Its crazy how no matter how much I try to let go the heart seems to linger and hold on to the past. Got damn sometimes I just wanna scream and pull my fucking heart out . Why cant I really just let go. I get over dem hoes but they still live on in my heart smh. So basically I have this problem where I wish their was two of me when actually there is but unforuntanly not physically. Bonified Gemini. It a gift and a curse but its me. But shit if sometimes I dont wish I had a one track mind, Its like I skip thoughts make up thought ,put myself in scenarios good and bad re analyze like a mother fucker shits cray but thats all i know how to do is think. I live in my mind I have many lifes. Not necessarily a better ones but just a diff rent. I have realized over the years how wonderfully the heart and mind dont work together. The fuck is that bull shit all about I battle enough with myself in general now this bull shit.All these things in which no one prepared me for so how do you cope how do you know when you done and there is true closer.Who really wins the heart or the mind at the end of the day or is it everyone else telling you whats right and what about that gut feeling that your suppose to listen too. Then there is that thing where I have never been happier in my life and my carreer that I dont know how to just be happy I dont even really know what that means I can mimic It very well and sometimes it is extremely genuine but no one really taught me how to be happy from the inside out. Im a sayer not a doer, and that shit is dumb why thee fuck is it sooooooo hard for real nigga like me to do as I say.Cause honte I can give you all thee advice in the world but wont take a lick of it. So with that being said there is an inside me and and out side me and really what most see aint me.
My twin
My twin
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